You & Me

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can’t keep up and I can’t back down
I’ve been losing so much time 

… I can’t. Can I?

It’s beyond any feeling I’ve ever felt. It’s all encompassing, all consuming. Preoccupied and confused. Yet … elated and ecstatic. It’s here, and it’s wrong and I just … can’t.

The conventions of life … my life. Who prescribes these? Why are we not just individuals instead of slaves to arbitrary social stigmas? Where is the freedom?

Trapped? No, not really. Backed in to a corner? Maybe, but only by my choice. So, if it’s my choice, then why can’t I shake this?

… Cause it’s you and me and all other people
With nothing to do
Nothing to lose … 

Nothing to lose? Hah! SO MUCH to lose.

And it’s you and me and all other people
And I don’t know why,
I can’t keep my eyes off of you … 

… or shut down my brain. Or put a stop to the overflow of emotion.

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren’t coming out right
I’m tripping on words
You’ve got my head spinning
I don’t know where to go from here… 

But I do! I DO know where to go. Anywhere that’s away from HERE. Back to a moment when this wasn’t such a dilemma. Oh but I am, after all, me, right? So, I like the dilemma. I like the uncertainty. Here’s my adventure, here’s my new project, my new chaotic drama to handle. Why can’t I just “be?”

And it’s you and me and all other people
And I don’t know why,
I can’t keep my eyes off of you … 

Seriously! Stop. Just … stop. This is insane. What’s the definition of insanity again? Oh right, doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. Hah! Been there before. Been HERE before. Nothing good comes out of it. Nothing. Ever. Just hurt. Lots and lots of hurt. So just … STOP. Damnit.

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive.

I can’t. Can I?



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